Top Ten Blunders ’08-’18

 

1. Not Knowing who Andrew Clements Was. (2008)

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This memory is clear. Week One. A gentleman comes in to browse our fledgling shelves. He inquires pointedly where the Andrew Clements books are. I have not heard of Andrew Clements. He can tell. I am revealed as fraud for thinking myself able to tend a meaningful bookstore. “Clements is important to kids in transition from elementary to middle,” he offers insistently. “Thank you for letting me know about his work. We will likely stock it soon,”  I say. This felt to be a big blunder that first week, failing to meet expectation of knowledge and not having the books “everyone” knows we should have. But the true misstep here was my assuming the exchange a loss. To the contrary, it was a part of the key to our promise of knowledge itself. Shockingly, I still don’t know all the authors and books requested by customers, but my response is still (and always will be) the same: “Thank you. Now I know more.”

2. Thinking tweens would like to talk politics in Hunger Games (2009)

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We hosted a pizza party/ book discussion in ’09 . The turnout was great because kids were anxious to talk about this book and vote Peeta v. Gale, but why did I keep asking about the “psychology of revolution” and the ways “rhetoric of war and the propaganda of leadership” were clear in the text? Way to make a great story about rad teens caught in a dramatic challenge and emerging love triangle boring, book lady.

Thanks for setting me straight, kids. You did.

3. Making Written Mistakes. (all the time)

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We are book people who claim to love words and their rules of operation, so why do we misspell them on a receipt or post a newsletter/social media missive with a typo? Because we are humans prone to making the mistakes that hurt us the most.

4. Carting Books to Car, Loading the Large Hand Truck. Leaving Books on Sidewalk. Driving home. (2011)

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When asked what part of the business I’m not good at, I don’t miss a beat: moving and tending all the boxes of books. You’ll see this in action when I load in to any community event or move boxes in store. This is a task I often took on as a strong (not strong) one-woman show for years.

In spring of 2011, I took several heavy boxes of books to an author event downtown. The books didn’t all sell, so I loaded them back on my trusted hand-truck and walked to the car. There I astutely placed the boxes on sidewalk, put the precious, heavy hand-truck into the trunk and drove dreamily away, leaving the books to fend for themselves on the Kalamazoo Mall. (They were gone from the walk in the morning, never to be seen again.)

5. Underestimating the number of people who would come out for Patricia Polacco. (2017)

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We’ve hosted Patricia several times in the last 10 years, each time to a large, vibrant, crowd, but nothing quite prepared us (or her) for the endless line of (thousands) that came out to see her this last summer. We didn’t have enough books or space in her remarkable home, but we did have just enough wherewithal to make sure everyone left with compassion and hope.

6. Setting Out Too Many Chairs (2008 – ?)

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It’s not as devastating as not being able to serve hungry fans well, but it is demoralizing nonetheless and one of the necessary blunders of hosting free and open events: sometimes far fewer people come than you hope, and the difference between the dream and the reality is there for a grateful small few of us to see.

7. Thinking We Can Be Everything to Everyone.

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This one speaks for itself, but is a particular conundrum for brick&mortar retail. In many ways, we are committed to serving every person and every need that comes through the door. It took years to understand that some people entering did not have interest in who we are or what we are offering and could say something hurtful (that should instead be received as matter of fact): “This place doesn’t have anything I like.”

8. Thinking that there are more pressing things to do than read.

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Starting the business was more work than ever imagined. Operating and growing it…more so still, everyday.

It often seems responsible to not indulge in what brought us to the business to begin with: reading for pleasure.

You see the blunder here though, no?

9. Introducing the wrong author

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I haven’t kept tally on number of authors introduced over the years, but I will always remember the one I did the unforgivable to: read bio aloud  (from loved, trusted source), only to discover it was that of another writer who had very same name. I stopped mid-way, aware of the blunder, apologized, and promised to keep his book face-out on the shelf (and my head in the sand) for life.

10. Being married in front of people.

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We own a business together and don’t always agree on the details. Here’s one: I like to start large events promptly. He prefers to wait for likely late arrivals. At the start of one such event, we disagreed publicly on the matter. A loving attendee offered “can you tell they are married?”

Yes, we’ve learned to set clear “personal and professional lines, with respect and communication as pillars to both,” but do staff and customers catch glimpses of a private, bickering couple sometimes?

Yes. No. Yes.

 

Top Ten Memories ’08 – ’18

1.  The Promise of the Promise

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When asked what it is that brought us to the business of books and to this place, I  answer two things: 1. a crazy love; and 2. a groundbreaking promise.

Dismantling the financial barrier of higher ed for all students is the thing we pointed to when asked for proof of place that: cared about books, rallied around community, could survive a plummeting economy, and would work to nurture local investment. The Promise, both its immeasurable spirit and finite goals are forever linked to our store’s mission and practice. Its announcement in 2005 and its immediate and ongoing impact are among our most pivotal memories.

2. Hearing the young Voices of Kalamazoo

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If you’ve heard our welcome of RAWK Reads or Justice for our Neighbors events, you’ve heard this before: we host a lot of powerful voices in our space. World renowned authors, activists, poets, and artists–who rock our shelves and our world. Still, nothing holds candle to hearing the voices and written words of children of our community.

3. Being drawn to and by kids

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An eight-year old drew our first logo. Since then the words, drawings and messages from kids stand out as most memorable keepsakes and the feedback we take most dramatically to heart.

4. Being mistaken as Michael Pollan during a KCF annual meeting, with Pollan as keynote. (2014)

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It was a likely mistake: Derek was standing behind the books without much hair and a welcoming smile. He took it in stride, saying he’d be happy to sign as many books as they’d like.

5. Our midnight release for the next generation. (2016)

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Alohomora. It was so great. Thanks for the magic, Kalamazoo.

6. Not Needing to Introduce Amy Goodman because she said ALL THE WORDS herself. (2017)

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She took the mic right away and said it all. Here we were in an independent space, talking, listening, and acting.  This is Democracy in action. This is what a free and open press looks like. Independent bookstores and independent stakeholders, our time is Now.

7. Roxane Gay describing speed at which she writes and the media (including napkins) on which she places potent messages. (2014)

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Process and craft as matter of frantic necessity, relentless practice, and powerful truth. Gay’s was among most candid, specific, and graceful offering of this we recall.

(Lindy West rolling over to her laptop on her couch comes in a close, wonderful second.)

8. Getting help with clean-up from friends

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It happens after every event: someone (or two) offers to help put the store back together again, because Kalamazoo is better than all the king’s horses and all the king’s men.

9. Embarrassing Self in most introductions of guests

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I can’t help it. Hosting usually means welcoming a hero. This is my chance to say it out loud.

10. Exhausting Family

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Our work (to build a meaningful bookstore) is our life–in the healthiest and hardest of ways. Not one of us isn’t pooped out and grateful at end of the day/week/year(s).

We are infinitely better for having each other and you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Top Ten Customer Moments ’08-’18

We have met many friends, encountered several surprises, and welcomed countless queries between 2008 and 2018. The moments that follow are both unique, single memories and reoccurring wonders, each a stand-out over the last decade as powerful moments we won’t forget.

1. Being told Thank You by a person accustomed to not finding self in books; having instinct to respond “i am sorry.” and instead offering, “you are welcome.” you are.  

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Much has changed since 2008, when I asked an experienced librarian for children’s books in which non heteronormative relationships were incidental rather than driving force of story, whether there were fresh, fantastic graphic novels featuring characters of color, and where all the new bilingual picture books could be found. I came up scarce on these requests in ’08, and can point to many more hitting these marks well in ’18. Still, we have a long way to go as a store, as an industry, and as a community, to demonstrate authentic welcome, service, and celebration of the fullest, richest human story possible. This intention was a founding principle of our store and remains a guiding force in all we do.

2. Being Told a Reader Was (re) Born.

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Every child is born a reader. There is no newborn not intrigued by the rhythms, movements, and scenes of story and no human not driven by its hold. There are, though, many children led to believe reading is not for them: letters on a page are confusing or uncompelling, the act of reaching story via text strange or unwanted, especially in the way–or at the rate–expected. We have always believed that removing such expectations and focusing on what makes receiving story intriguing and joyful is the only matter. This is why we show kids of all ages and reading abilities books overflowing with pictures, with hilarious, interactive, relatable text, books others say are beneath or above them, and then, sometimes we hear the story return that we love most of all: a reader is (re) born.

2 1/2. A toddler giving art direction to an author/illustrator, as needed.  

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All great illustrators to visit our store have engaged kids in the act of creating character, action, and scene, but there was something about Bob Shea, his jelly bean start to every picture and his full embrace of a resolute toddler that will remain in our hearts forever.

3. Being cautioned by a conference organizer that people may not want books.

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In defense of this caution, the most experienced among us have no crystal ball on demand for anything, ever. It’s a truth indistinguishable from others’ in the business of offering goods, but formulas of prediction do reveal themselves in time and in a few marked circumstances. Nerd Camp Michigan is one such instance, and the formula revealed itself immediately in 2014:

joy-driven book passion + genuine friendship + free gathering place + innovative authors + radically compassionate educators = ALL THE BOOKS WILL BE WANTED.

This photo (taken that first year) was our modest, plentiful table upon load-in. Within hours, each book was gone from this table. Every year since, we bring higher broader stacks, and they always fly away on the wings of this formula.

4. Hearing a mother giggle at her toddler in loving insistence that the Girl Power book was not for him.  

Girl Power

This is a specific memory, yes, but also a moment reflecting something ubiquitous in our 10 years years: the expressed (or acted upon) assumption that books prominently featuring confidently gendered girls are not (or in some cases, should not be) interesting to boys.  It is a quiet, well-intended, devastating form of sexism that we hope to see change dramatically in our next ten years.

5. Offering Presence to a Grieving Loved One.

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There are many ways to be present to a dear friend or known acquaintance processing unbearable loss. In the bookstore this experience has taken many sacred shapes: placing loved words into trembling hands, searching unknown stories for small comforts, allowing a kindred reader the distance and dignity of the shelves to self, remembering a detail of the loved-one in store, hugging, crying, being open, being here–it has been a great honor and an amazing grace.

6. Watching an unknown customer weep upon entering a new space.

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I didn’t know her. She didn’t know me. We both cried.

7. Being the background to moments

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There are many customers who have chosen our store as place to document their own stories: the marking of engagement or marriage, new and grown families posing for photo, a mother&daughter in musical accompaniment. Our shelves are a grateful background to these live, beautiful stories.

8. Being Gifted Unexpected Inspired Art

Chair Made for Us

It is one thing to be caretaker, advocate, and carrier of art, it is another to be recognized and celebrated in it itself. This chair, gifted in surprise to our story time leader is one of the many offerings the store has been gifted in celebration of its very being. Each of these gifts and times of their offering are among our most memorable.

9. Being spotted away from home

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One of my fondest early memories is being recognized by a child in the grocery and hearing: “Look Mom, it’s the book lady. What’s she doing here?” Since then, being spotted–and building book community–beyond our walls has grown more intentional and joyful. Waldo’s summer wanderings in Kalamazoo are one way we thank our town for spotting (and appreciating) us away from our home.

10. Being told: “I am surprised you are still open.”

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This hasn’t tapered much in 10 years and takes many different forms:

“How can you compete?”

“I thought you were all dead.”

“Do people still read books?”

“You’re still here in this corner?”

And, nevertheless…